I haven’t blogged since July. Well, that’s not entirely true. I’ve not published a post since July. I’ve written a lot, then beat myself up about how badly written the posts were.
I’ve been massively struggling the past few months with anxiety, depression and stress – all due to work! For anyone who knows me, I am very career driven. I want the best. I want to be successful. I want to do well.
A few years ago, I started a job that I thought would be great. It was a new industry, most coworkers seemed like great people, and I was going to get to try my hand at some new stuff. Quickly, I was promoted and moved back into HR.
I loved HR. I loved my job back in Canada as an HR Manager. It was a fulfilling role. The promotion I received was everything but fulfilling. It was soul-sucking. Draining. The worst.
Now, I know you shouldn’t slag off your employer (or ex employers online), but in January of this year, I was signed off work by my GP for stress at work. My job was consuming my life. The people I worked with were unprofessional and were slowly dragging me down. I was feeling horrible about myself, and trying to keep myself a float in a pool of disrespect, bitterness, and deceit.
You’ll be happy to hear that I have resigned. I am done. I handed in my notice this week and instantly felt a weight lifted from my shoulders.
I actively want to try to be “me” again. I’m moving on to a professional SME in a HR Manager role. I’m trying to not let my anxiety win. I’m trying to see my friends more. I’m giving up things that are negative. I’m trying to redefine my diet & exercise routine. I’m trying to just say no to the bullshit.
Join me while I try to navigate a new, less stressful being.