Since I was about 6, I remember keeping some semblance of a journal. I would write about holidays with family, boys I thought were cute, and dogs I got to pet at the park. Basically, as a 32 year old, I now journal about the exact same stuff – just in blog format!
I was chatting with a friend the other night about blogging (check her out on The Inspired Home Body) and how I was concerned about making my blog public and what sort of feedback I would get from people. I’m not an overly public person and have only ever shared my blog with strangers because I wasn’t ready for personal criticisms from friends (even if they were only light hearted).
Why are we like that? Is it just me? I work in a creative, co-working space and am surrounded by people all day who make a living blogging and vlogging and love it and are “out there” with their work. When they first started, were they as apprehensive a me?
I’ve actually been blogging since 2012. I started my original blog when I was going through loads of change in my life. I was out of a long term relationship, really excelling in my career, was travelling a lot and was enjoying the single life. I blogged about my day to day – basically, journaling online. After a while, I lost interest and stopped, but I had hundreds of followers and felt like I had an actual audience. I still felt ashamed. My family nor my friends knew I was blogging. Why, when I was having success & enjoying myself, would I feel like I shouldn’t celebrate what I was doing?
Flash forward 8 years to this blog. My statistics are through the roof. I’m getting loads of readers every day and the followers are slowly coming on. I’m receiving emails constantly with questions or asking me to blog about certain things. This is so exciting for me, but I’ve still yet to take the leap and share this with anyone I actually know.
Whilst on holiday, I talked to my husband about it. He knew I enjoyed blogging and had in the past. I shared my writing with him and he was mega supportive. I’ve finally decided to just say fuck it and have shared a link on my Instagram profile. It’s a small step, but now I feel like I’m at least heading in the right direction.
Why do I blog? When I went to university, I intended to do a degree in Journalism. I love writing. I had a mix of boring classes and equally boring profs, and ended up taking other classes to keep me sane that straddled Criminology / Human Rights / Ethics because they were more interesting, and then I ended up changing majors altogether. I often regret this decision, but know it was the right decision for me at the time. Because I don’t get to write professionally and will never be employed in the field of journalism, my blog has always been my alternative option.
I’m hoping I’m able to find my confidence and begin to share my blog more openly with the people around me.
What are you most proud of? How do you deal with criticism?